主體隱身與漸現之流與飛～一段鬆脫壓制之行動探究與實踐歷程

Abstract

本論文之主旨在於描述一位女子與婚姻中男人發生感情，體驗到第三者污名的強大壓制，而試圖解構污名壓制的行動探究歷程。 採用行動研究及生命敘說的研究方法，以各種行動實踐，輔以書寫日誌自我對話、公開文本與人對話、及藝術創作等方式，進行解構污名壓制的探究與自我療癒。經過上述探究發現，重新檢視體制與主流的價值觀，個人主體性漸出，因而產生自我認同與情感視框的挪移，不再以外在體制、而以「情感主體—人」為本位。同時，亦從行動研究過程中發展出個人的在地知識，主題包括「污名對個人的影響」、「掙脫壓制的歷程」、「『瘋狂』與『情緒化』及『此生命經驗』的意義重新框架」、「對行動探究及生命敘說力量的體會」，與「助人者的省思」等。

The study describes the process that a woman fell in love with a married man but experienced the dominant compression by traditional values. Moreover, this study tries to deconstruct the stigma. The study adopts action research and life narrative as research methods. That is, the writer takes kinds of action praxis as well as some sorts of ways like “writing diaries for self dialogue”, “sharing texts for communicating to others” and “art creation” to explore how to deconstruct stigma compression and cure herself. Deeply, the writer reviews the institutions and mainstream (traditional) values. Owing to the examination, the writer empowers herself and leads to the changes of 'self identity' and 'emotional framework'. That is to say, the writer starts to understand that she does not have to evaluate herself by 'outside institutions and values' but she could follow 'inside self feelings'. Beside of all above, the writer emphasizes some issues inclusive of 'the effects of stigma', 'the process from deconstruction to reconstruction', 'the new definitions of insane behaviors' as well as ' the reflection of counselor'.